Auf Wiedersehen 2008

tick tock tick tock...2009 just around me.....

first impression..makin tua la pasni... 2009=24..huarghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
yearly planning = kumpul duit as much as i can then....HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!! YEAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

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mmmh, rase mcm br je semalam celebrate the year 2008, n now nk msk dh 2009..a year had passed, 364 days had left, but 2008 still in my heart,hihhih..so all around, 2008 definitely a great year for me,even bumps here and there..biasela kan,lumrah alam,but im still here, faithfully and never loose control..bravo sha!..hehehe..perasan sungguh aku ni! (*~*)

So, i do hope 2009 will be a great year for me. As i know it's not gonna be an easy one since it's my first year experiencing life as a teacher...bkn sebarang cikgu tau, cikgu fizik lagi,hahahaha.. "pade hal fizik ko tu x la sehebat mane sha!! hik..hik..hik.." kenyatan aku yg maha tulus tuh..hahaha..

Every now and then bile masuk taun baru je, people must be talking bout the new azam taun baru and ape yg aku perasan aku pun same jugak. Tapi masalahnye at the end of the year berjaya ke?? Tercapai ke?? Or yg paling best, ingat lagi ke azam tu??? haihh..yg last tu specific skit kt diri sendiri ek..hihihihih...
Yes, i can't even remember my own azam for 2008..don't blame me,it's just in my bloody short term memories, dalam seminggu je ingat, pastu trus lost..hahahhaa.. So, to take a new steps, i then decided to change "Azam Taun Baru" to " MY 2009 TARGET" haihhh..gempak dak???? sha mmg suke perasan gempak..hehehhee (+ __+)

MY 2009 TARGET

p/s : since 2009 aku dh bekerja so jangan tekejut kalo target aku nmpak mcm materialistik skit, bknye xde bende2 tu, just nk rase beli ngan titik peluh sendiri, chewahhhhhh..hahahaha..

1) Go for a holiday > this time around terlebih excited nk g holiday gune duit sendri..hehehe..So i'm thinking Ausssie ( Gold Coast la uols but probably Perth kot since my dad nk sangat g sane,pasrah je la.. ) or maybe London again...( yes, i've been there once and i wanna go there again) or maybe Makkah ( and later Riyadh and Dubai, sebenarnye ni mmg n wajib akan pegi just tggu mase yg sesuai,hehehe )

2) Diet > Each year bende ni ade dlm list, tp at last for 2008 aku berjaya gak turunkan almost 5 kilos within nov and dec...so jan smbg lagi diet,hehehe..hajat di hati nk turunkan lagi beberapa kilosss ni... berjaya ke????? kite tunggguuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!

3) Be a better and wiser person > and a good teacher.. Yes, x nk dh marah2, angin x tentu pasal,moody..and kene berubah on some of my attitude lor..

4) Perbanyak amal ibadat > Yang ni wajib and mesti ditingkatkan..kene insaf skit, jgn nk nakal2 dh,dh makin tua cik sha oiiii!!!.bkn makin mude..haishhhh..

5) LOVE > in general nk menyayangi sumer org yg sayang aku,sayang kt binatang, x nk bunuh semut dh!!! n in specific ways to the person that i loved so muchhhh, i wanna love him more and more every day..hehehe..InsyaALLAh

6) Start to appreciate my life > in every single things happened in me, in my life, my family, my love one, my friends, n people arounds me...

----- Banyak gak yg aku target ni.. tapi berjaya ke???? kite tggu n lihat je,hehhehe...


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" HAPPY NEW YEAR "

" WELCOME 2009"

" May a Great Year Ahead"

take off with love
illham shiraz

Posting oh posting...

mmmmh, arini dh 3rd December, tp posting aku still x kua lg....
adoiii, pehal lmbt sgt ni...
patutnye by this week mestila dh kua.. kn Januari nk lapor diri dh...
ape masalah KPM ni???
bley x dorg bgtau tmpt posting tu cpt skit...
at least bley la ready pape..
mane la tau kot2 tercampak jauh nun di sabah n sarawak..
sempat la nk prepare pape yg penting dalam sebulan ni..
jgn last minute, tinggal semggu dua br dorg nk bgtau posting dhla...
time tu kalo aku plak dpt nun jauh di sane...
tu yg mmg rase nk ngamuk tu....

dorg ni nk buat SUPRISE plakkk...
bagitau je la cpt2..
aku ni dh x senang ddk dh since isnin aritu..
sbb aku la manusia yg g menyebarkan kt kawan2 aku posting kua awal disember...
hahahhaha...tu sumer atas kajian aku sendiri tau kawan2, jgn la mudah terpengaruh,heheh..
mmm..sesungguhnya aku dh makin x saba tunggu posting aku kua...
agak2 mane la aku dapat ek?????

kalo ikut instinct aku yg maha hebat ni, aku rase la.....

70% untuk aku dpt yg nun jauh di sane tu (sbh n swk)

20% lg tuk aku dapat kt area n9...tu pun atas bantuan n pertolongan org la, tp aku x yakin sgt la.

and another 1
10% lg tuk aku dpt mane2 negeri yg selebihnya...

....huhuuhuhuhu...

ishhhh, kalo dipikirkan blk bley ke aku survive kalo aku dihantar kt tempat yg jauh di sane tu??
stakat dok seremban ni pun aku dh busan nk mampus, ni kn plak kat sane...

aku rase aku bley kot survive kalo kt kuching ke, kt KK ke...
tp kalo yg jauh dr town tu...
lemah skit aku niiiiiiiii...hihihih...

and yg paling penting skali..
if aku dapat mane2 posting kt sane..
aku dh berjaya memujuk seseorang tu tuk ikut aku ddk sane...yeaaaaaaa!!!!!!
tu je part yg gembira stakat ni..hehehhe
ok la tu at least there's somethin that can make me smileee kn... a long wide smileeeeeeeeee =)

and kalo aku ditakdirkan tuk dapat nun jauh di sane tu....
aku lg rela kalo dorg bagi aku sabah...
Please send me to sabah but not sarawak...
i nk g Sabah jugak, jangan anta kt Sarawak!!!!
Kt Sabah tu dh ade org yg volunteer nk jg aku,hihihih..
lagi2 kalo aku kat KK..
bkn stakat jage je tau...mmmmm..ade laaaa..hahahaha ;)
n die pun xyah la nk risau slaloo..
sbb aku dh ade dpn mate knnn...heheheh..
ari2 bley jmpe tau!!!!!..
x yah dh webcam2 siang mlm,hehehhe....

tapi kalo aku dapat sarawak...
bley x aku nk mintak tuka posting aku ke sabah????
rase2nye KPM nk x layan permintaan aku tu???
hahahhaa...banyak songeh btl minah ni..

Sebenanye aku x kesah pun dapat mane2...
tp kalo ikutkan posting ni la penentu masa depan..cehhh..hehhe..
maknenye, nak x nk kene la duk kt tmpt tu at least 3 taun...
or smpai kawen, baru bley mintak transfer...
sbb tu ramai kawan2 aku prefer kwen awal..
but for me...no way..
Live life till the fullest...
abis enjoy...br kawenn...
sbb aku ni jenis x suke komitmen kot...
so, paham2 je la ye...

tapi kalo aku dapat jauh nun di sane tu..
aku sedey skit la....sedey byk woooooo...
ye la jauh dr my family kn...
jauh dr my lil sister...
x dpt dh nk join family activity aku yg best2 nih...
x dpt nk mengepoh ngan cousin2 aku tuu...
x dpt dh nk jmpe n lepak ngan dorg slalooooo....
n aku mesti miss ms2 gembira bile dorg nk organize wedding..huhuh..
next year kn ade 2 wedding dlm family aku niii...
nnti kak E tunang pun aku x dpt blk,huhuhuh....
x mau, nk balik jugak!!!!!!!
dh janji nk pakai lilac kn..huhuhuhu......

tu la sbenanye.......
sbb family la aku x nk dpt posting jauh nun di sane tu..
sbb laen....

1. aku suke shopping.. (dorothy, topshop,mng......)
   
2. aku suke tgk wayang (gsc,tgv....
   
3. aku suke mknnnn..( burger king, mcd,pizza,manhattan,secret recipe......huwaaaaaaa!!!!
   

sumer yg aku suke tu xde kat sane..huhuhu..
kalo ade pun kt town besar2...
mcm la aku dpt kt town...
skali aku dpt kt tepi pulau...
br aku tau..huhuhu...

cmne pun, mane KPM anta....
aku akan pegi jugak...
cari pengalaman hidup yg baru...
tengok tempat orang...
be independent..
survival skitt...
let go all my bad habits tu,hehhee..

tuk org2 KPM tu,
cepatla bg postingggg....
aku dh x saba nk tau mane tempat aku nk g ni...
aku ni tiap ari celik2 mate, trus bukak website MOE...
berdebar siot..hehehe
i wanna be the first one to know....
sbb ms tu dgn bangganye, bley la aku inform member2 laen yg result posting dh kua...hihihi..perasan la plak..hehhe

arap2 by this week dapat la tau...
bley prepare ape yg ptt..
mentally and physically...tu kalo aku dapat jauh nun di sane tu la..

janganla next week die br nk bagitau...
i'm not gonna be around for the whole week...
i'm heading north...balik kg..
hahaha..sejak bile aku jd org utara ni???? perasan x abis btl!!!!!!!
yes, my dad dh promise nk bwk mkn char koew teow DOLI kt taiping tu ..
and org kate mmg sdp gile..
since aku ni peminat char koew teow, of course aku nk rase...hehehe
tp dh byk kali ktorg singgah..
singgah je, kdai tu mesti ttp...
arap2 this time x la...

eh, ok..dh terlari dr tajuk plak,hahahha...
so ms aku kt utara nnti internet connection xde..
so kalo result posting kua nnti x mau la kawan aku yg cek kn tuk aku..
x SUPRISE maaaaaaaa!!!!!
huhuhuhuhu.....


mmmmh, panjang btl aku merepek stakat nk cite pasal posting yg x dapat lg tu kn..hehehhe..
bile dh dpt posting nnti, i'll inform kay...

tuk sape yg x suke bc, x yah bc ye..
yg suke bc tu, rajen2 la tinggalkn komen pape tuk aku, bg kate2 semangat skit ke, chewahhhhh, mcm la aku nk g naek bulan kn,hahahaha...

till then,daaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

take off with love
illham shiraz

Wedding Issue Vol 1

yup, it's december ya'll...hehehhe

bile msk je bln ni, bende first yg kite terbayang mesti cuti sekolah kn, n bile cuti sekolah start maknenye byk la wedding. Kalo kite lalu kt area tman mase musim2 cuti sekolah ni, mesti kite dpt tengok satu pemandnagn br kt simpang2, where people letak direction to wedding si... and si..., hehhe.. Tu la adat kt Malaysia skang ni, bile time cuti sekolah je sumer sebok nk kahwin. Smpai skang pun aku x paham knape nk kene tggu musim cuti sekolah br nk kawen, pelik btl. Tp bile di fikirkan balik kalo kite kahwin ngan org jauh contohnya, org kelantan kahwin ngan orang N.Sembilan patut gak la buat ms cuti sekolah, sbb sng la smbl anta kahwin smbl2 tu bley cuti2 malaysia...chewaaaahhhhhh..hahhahaha..ade makna tersirat sebenanye tu,hahaha.. So,kalo kes cmtu ptt la dipertimbangkan. Ni x, dhla kahwin same negeri, ade yg selang brape umah pun nk buat ms cuti sekolah, p la cr date laen yg x menyusahkan org.. Patutnye ms cuti sekolah ni la parents nk bawak anak2 g holiday, tp bile dh ade jemputan mcm ni, rase bersalah plak kalo x g bile org dh ajak kn...mmmmmh,ssh btl la..

Sbenanye, motif utama aku arini nk cite pasal wedding, ahaks,hehhe.. Dalam family aku pun (to be specific my mom's side) kitorg pun skang ni dh msk mood wedding. jgn x tau, dh siap ambik giliran tau!! bley x, kahwin pun dlm family aku ni ade giliran, sape cpt die dpt..hahahha.. so, next year punye giliran dh penuh, since setaun dilimitkan 2 org je,heheh..adoiiiii, bile nk smpai turn aku ni, dhla berdozen lg sepupu yg atas aku tu x reti2 nk kahwin, ish, kurang asam btl dorg ni....hahaha,padehal bkn aku kesah pun, bknye ade calon lg, n yg plg penting aku bknye ade duit lg pun nk kahwin,ahaksssss..hehehe

well, next year giliran Abg Fairus and Kak E, utamakan mereka yg lebih tua,hehehe.. Sjak family aku get involved into wedding things ni br la aku realise it does cost a lot of money especially kalo kite nk yg terbaek..Of course la kn sape nk wedding yg sempoi2 je?? Well not for me, i want a fully organize wedding from scratch and on tiny little things..Yes, it's an experience of a lifetime..Eventhough aku rase mase tuk aku kahwin tu lmbt lg(mengikut kiraan aku sendiri lg 4 taun,heheh,tua dh makcik ms tu,hahahah) tp aku dh tau ape aku nk. N if u ask me know, i dh tau mane nk buat my wedding dress, who gonna be the designer, who's the photographer, and all the tiny little things,hehhe.. ni sumer berkat kegemaran aku yg suke surf pasal weddingthings la,hehehhe.. Ok, honestly i love MAN KAJANG custom made dresses, jgn la kire pasal harge cos its once in a lifetime experience. Bile lg nk rase diri kite mcm princess kn pkai bj harga ribu2 tuh.Biar berhabis asalkan hati puas,hehehe..Photographer, i suggest MANGGAR STUDIO or KINCHAN STUDIO, both nmpak bgs, (kalo nk tau more info, google je dorg kt fotopages ) My cousin ade ambik dgn maggar studio and the picture is like faboulous gilerrrrr,berbaloi habis almost 5k kt photographer, mmg puas hati giler,heheheh..And kalo make up plak, NURUL SHUKOR, she's the master...buat kite nmpak cntik in just a simple n natural..heheh..

Kesimpulannye, kalo aku nk kahwin nnti, memandangkan sumer yg aku nk tu harganye boley tahan, terpakse la aku kumpul duit dr skang.. And to sesape yg berhajat nk kahwin dgn saye, kumpul la duit byk2, sbb tu x msk lg my HANTARAN WISHLIST,hahahhaha.. Bankrupt bakal laki aku kalo cmni,hehhehe...Tu x tanye lagi nk cincin kahwin yg cmne,hahahhaha..Material girl sungguh aku ni,hehehhe..saba je la.... ye la, kahwin kn sekali seumur idup,hehheeh,satu lg alasan yg aku suke pakai, n alasan ni mmg buat org berhabis duit, x gitu?????????

till then, i do hope to find my soulmate sooon...

p/s : sape2 yg nk cr hantaran,try la bukak this webpages http://merisikgallery.fotopages.com/?&page=3 Dorg buat hantaran gorgeus giler, sbb mostly pakai fresh flowers, cantik, serius giler, lawa..kalo la aku nk kahwin skang ni, mesti aku hired dorg..hehhe..

take off with love,
illham shiraz

saturday 29 november

i woke up today at 8.20 am, tu pun sbb fon umah ku berbunyi, sape la yg call pg2 buta ni, aku pun dgn mlsnye bgn nk g ambik la, suddenly br aku teringat, hari ni kn saturday, my mom ade kt umah, so biarla die yg angkat fon tu, lgpun of course la tuk die kn, so aku batalkan hasrat tuk bgn, n smbg blk tido,hahahhaa..teruk btl kan anak dara sorg ni,hehhe..aku pun guling2 la, dgn hajatnye nk tido blk, dlm 15 minit aku dok dlm selimut, x jugak dpt tido, aku pun bgn la.. rupenye yg call td my uncle, bg information terbaru pasal my uncle yg laen..

so here the story, actually my pak usu was admitted to hospital last night, katenye ade batu kt hempedu, so nk buat laser la, tp aku x comfirm plak bile.. Well, he just got back from london a few days ago, n ape yg aku dgr, mase kt london pun die admitted kt hospital, so my busu had to drive all the way to a few school there for my cousin pre test admission for her A level while my uncle still in the hospital ( i guess la, coz not really sure bout the education system in UK) gosh..ape pun, hope he's alright n gettin better..

Then about my another uncle, my anjang, he's coming back from Riyadh this morning, and actually aku dh dgr die sakit lame dh, since raya aritu, but he keep on denied it.. Mase raye aritu my alang and busu had asked him to came back to malaysia instead of fly all his children to riyadh, ye la kn ms tu die dh start skt, so blk raye and buat further check up, tp he insist ckp xde pape, nothin to worry, and this time anjang blk jugak, kate my mom dh semggu x dpt tido mlm, and he got a few issues yg nk di settelkn kt sini, and i hope one of them is mine, hahahahah.. kalo anjang still igt la kn,hehehe..btw,he should be worried bout his health, sbb my family ni ade sejarah skt jantung.. x sanggup rasenye nk tgk sorg lg my uncle msk ijn buat by pass, adoi,dh byk kali sgt g ijn tu tgk uncle2 aku buat by pass..

picture of anjang with umaira' (his first cucu)

I rase raye haji tahun ni meriah la agaknye, since my anjang pun dh blk, my busu, udo my cousin yg kt yemen tu probably x jd g buat haji taun ni, atas sbb2 yg x dpt dielakkan di saat2 terakhir.. after all semua yg berlaku tu ade hikmahnye and myb it's the best for all of us..

by then, praying for my family moga semuanya dipanjangkan umur dan dilindungi dr segala bencana n sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki, insyaAllah.

take off with love,
illham shiraz

start to appreciate my life..

i had a terrible headache today, dh lame dh x sakit kepala mcm ni, x tau la nape arini dtg blk, since ptg td it's getting worse, but i still here, writing bout somethin that i want to share..

Well, last few days, i stumble across this blog, my first impression bile tgk tuan tanah blog tu,mengingatkan aku kt someone, someone used to be close to me.. sekali pandang muke dorg ni ade iras2, so sbbkn tu aku pun explore la blog die, dr satu artikel ke satu artikel aku bc.. Luahan hati die btl2 buat aku tersentuh, coz i can felt that it is true from his heart. I adore him, sbb in a young age die dh ade company, he works hard everyday and his mum come first. Actually byk lg bende yg buat aku keep on bace blog die dr latest post die smpai la ke first post die, byk jugak la sbb blog tu start dr nov 07.. Bile bc blog die mcm2 aku rase, positif, negatif, and honestly he gave me a new perspective of life. Cara die bercerita mmg best,smpaikan kdg2 aku rase aku ade kt tempat die..tp ye la kn, bkn semua yg jd adalah kehendak kite, sumer tu takdir dr Allah. Tp sebenarnya kite masih boleh berdoa, minta dipulihkan hati kite tu untuk jalani hidup br, jgn anggap semua tu ketentuan Allah sahaja.

Reading his blog made me realise that there are so many things in life that we have to appreciate. " Tiap detik perjalanan hidup aku, merupakan pengajaran untuk aku menjadi lebih baik " I love the quote, since bg kesedaran skit kt aku ni yg x penah nk appreciate life aku sendri.. Thanks to him =) and i will keep on reading his blog...hehhee

Twilight

smlm g tgk twilight..ok gak la cite ni, best jugak..mayb sbb i love this kind of movies kot,mcm heroes skit,bende2 yg ade superpowers ni,heheh..and yes, i love vampires, for me vampires must be seorg yg hensem and this movies doesn't dissapoint me, since the vampire is damn gorgeous..hehehe..tp cite ni dh dimodenkkan, x mcm cite2 vampire yg laen.. and yg plg cute skali, there are vegetarian vampires,how cute is it,hehehe..they don't drink human blood, they just depend on animal blood,ade gak vampire yg baik kn..

here's the synopsis, copy from gsc :

TWILIGHT is an action-packed, modern day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn?t expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she?s ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands ? and he hasn?t aged since 1918. Like all vampires, he?s immortal. But he doesn?t have fangs, and he doesn?t drink human blood; Edward and his family are unique among vampires in their lifestyle choice. To Edward, Bella is that thing he has waited 90 years for ? a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre), the Cullens? mortal vampire enemies, come to town, looking for her?

Kekasih Gelap

aku x paham btl dgn ape yg dh jd skang ni, is he telling me the truth or is it me who being so dumb all this while yg x nmpak bende yg btl dpn mate or x dpt bezakan bende yg tersirat di sebalik sumer ni??? atau aku yg dh kene tipu??? ish, konfius btl..sape yg jd kekasih gelap sebenarnye?? aku ke?? or perempuan tu?? or him being kekasih gelap to that girl?? ape sumer niii????? aku dh jd x dpt nk menilai, n aku x paham mcm mane aku bley terime je sumer explanation.. aku ni dh kene ubat gune2 ke?? ish, selisih malaikat la, jgn la smpai tahap cmtu kn..

kalo nk dinilai, aku mcm x caye ade jugak perempuan yg mcm tu.. aku tau la, aku pun penah ade dlm situation mcm tu, everybody pun penah kn, we like this boy/girl, falling in love, but somehow die x de feeling pun kt kite..mestila kite heartbroken kn, tp smpai bile kite bley still suke die, plg lame sethn kite still contact kalo x reti malu la kn, tp at last mesti kite teruskan hidup kn, let go of him/her n find some other man/girl.. tp mcm mane this girl still like/love this guy, even after 4 years and still chasing after him????????? god,minah ni x reti nk cr lelaki laen ke?? come on la, byk lg laki dlm dunia ni, yg nk bf org tu jugak knape??? x paham btl aku la.. n yg plg buat aku konfius, mcm mane die ngan muke x malu bley buat dedication kt this guy kt radio, n saying that " mama sayang sgt kt papa" WTF girl is she??? eh, x tau ke tu bf org??

ok, mmg la aku emo skit, biasela part2 cmni kn.. then i listened to his explanation.. bley diterima n diguna pakai oleh otak aku yg masih waras ni, n i do trust him, so what should i doubt him bout somethin yg may b die x penah buat, and after all this while i know how hard he'd been trying to get my heart back, and i know how girl chasing after him..ntahla, x tau mane yg btl..tp aku tpercayakn die lebey dr segalanya..

so, for this girl, Nieja@ Niza from taiping perak...
plz and plz...tolong la jgn kaco lg saudara saiful b zuhari tu lagi.. tolongla, simpan je perasaan tu, jgn la nk pakai lg perkataan papa n mama tu, buat aku meluat je, n plzzz leave him alone..

Birthday Girl

YES!! i am back, no more sadness, bad mood and i guess its just my pms that swings around me last week..hehehe.

well, today is my lil sis birthday, she's 18.. Wow!! it's been wonderful to have her in my life, i've never regret for having her as my sister, she's my darling baby, my dearie angel and i love her very much.. eventhough sometimes she never understands me,hehhee.. Yup, i do dream to have her as my best friend where i can share everything with her, watching movies together, hangout, mkn2, just like every sister's do, but i do accept her for herself now and then..

To my lil SITI HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING u're will always gonna be my Baby Girl..

siti with her favourite dolphin (at back)..hehehe

ape dh jadi????

hehhe..yup, what happened to me??? lame btl x menulis pape kt blog ni, bkn xde mase, just mood tu xde... YES, i'm not in a good mood, arini pun same, some feeling yg x dpt nk di"'describe"kn.
Maybe PMS mood dh smpai kot, ntahla, bersabar je la....
But, i guess i do need somethin that will keep me in focus, but ape bende tu? mcm mane nk tau bende ape yg nk dibuat? skang ni, nk membc pun mls, nk menulis pun mls, sumer x kene, so want should i do now??? Sumer yg nk dibuat, end up xde mood.... TENSIONNNNNNNNNN!!!!!! Bile la nk berakhir sumernye ni.. i need my life back, my normal life, i need somethin to keep me in focus, that keep me busy, that will not lead me to thinking bout somethin that is not supposed to be, and later i will be in my deepest mood, where i will cry, and feeling sad, sumer x kene, and end up yelling to everybody!!!!... ohhhh...i hate that feeling, but how can i avoid it?????

please RESCUE me!!!!!!!!!

to S, maybe its bcoz of u, bcoz i know, there is somethin wrong since u back home..
to others, maybe its just my feeling rite.. i dont know...i guesss.. i hope anything will be back normal by this weekend, and i will try..

MY BEST FREN

Last 2 days, i started to read this new book i bought last week.. It's by CECELIA AHERN - Where Rainbows End-

SYNOPSIS :
Since childhood, Rosie and Alex have stuck by each other through thick and thin. But they're suddenly separated when Alex and his family move from Dublin to America. Rosie is lost without him. Then, just as she is about to join Alex in Boston, she gets life - changing news - news that will keep her at home in Ireland.
Their magical connections remains but can their friendship survive the years and miles - as well as new relationships ? And always at the back of Rosie's mind is whether they were meant to be more than just a good friends all along. Misunderstandings, circumstances and sheer bad luck have kept them apart - until now. But will they gamble everything - including their friendship - on true love ? And what twists and surprises does fate have in store for them this time....???

Ok..i choose this book bcoz of it's main subject..FRIENDSHIP and LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP . Yup, i need another point of view, or in a simple definition, somethin that can ease my worrieness towards my own feeling at this moment. When i started to read this book, SHOCKED!!!...hahhaa..mayb i never read any book from this author, and i don't no (I"M SOOOO ALEX, writing NO instead of KNOW..hahahah..bad influence daaaa) whether this CECELIA AHERN writing her books in a " LETTER" , "SMS" , "YM" , "EMAIL" thing..what i wanna say is, it's refreshing and i thing it's interesting... but at first i also thought that is not gonna work, i'm not gonna finish reading this book, it's not what i'm expected, but later i realised i still read this book, at by the end of this week end i'm gonna finish it up..hehehhe..

well, i'll give my own synopsis of this book later and what i think bout the story after all.. does it real broke my tears??? i don't know..still hoping, bcoz for me, the definition of a good book is when it make me laugh and cry..hehhee

LIFE

lame x menulis pape kt sini, bkn bz pun, just xde rase mcm nk bercerita pape..hehehe..
Anyway nothin much to say, the entire weekend sgt boring and my weekdays pun cmtu.. adoiiii, bile la agaknye nk berubah my lifestyle ni..

here's my daily routine....

bgn kul 9, then mandi, prepared my breakfast yg slaloonye just toast bread je,hehehe.. pastu mengadap tv kjp, tgk ugly betty kul 10, smbg tgk rachael ray kul 11, kul 12 tgk wanita hari ini, x pun ngadap la laptop ni, surf la bende merepek2, bc blog2 orang..pastu kul 2 take my lunch,which is simple jugak, no NASI coz im on my low carb diet, then smbg tgk tv, kul 4.30 i will watch the CINTA BATU BELAH @ BATU NISAN bak kate S la sbb cite tu sumer dok mati je last2,hehehe.. then smbg lg tgk tv, 6.30 tgk that sutera maya..but i don't think the story is as nice as Ezora or Manjalara..cite ni busan gile, n kdg2 x msk akal, dh la lembap, bile ntah nk abis.. for me,yg best spjg slot kul 6.30 tu is Manjalara n Ezora je.. then kul 7 diner, 7.30 tgk wulan kt tv1, this is the first indon story yg xde org jahat, purely cite cinta, tp satu la yg x bgsnye, si wulan ni ngandung anak luar nikah..mcm2 daaaaa... so at night, tgk tv lg, or surf internet la..hehehhee.. kesimpulannye, ape je aku buat spjg ari slain tgk tv kn..hahhahaha...

kalo nk kua pun mls, mls nk drive, mls nk cr kwn yg nk kua, n yg plg penting skali boring la kua kt sban ni..xde tempat yg best, sban oh sban. xde midvalley, klcc, ou, ikea, cinelesure.. yg ade cume jusco n parkson.. dh naek muak dh g tmpt tu.. bile la sban ni nk maju, nk g shopping or window shopping pun ssh.. that's why i don't to live here, but what to do, dh mmg org sban kn, kene la admit sumer tu, terima seadenya..hehhehe..

ok, so arini super boring skit..hajat di hati nk g jusco td, nk cr brg2 nk buat browniesla konon, dpt recipe dr blog2 yg slaloo dilawati, tp x tau la nape mls sgt nk ambik kunci keta tu, last2 x jd pun pegi, esok la kot, n kbtlan esok satu ari letrik xde, so bgsla tu, mmg sesuai..hehehe..

ha, arini boring skit sbb S bz, so xde la berSMS sgt..yela, org nk exam, kite yg bercuti ni mmg la, dok senang lenang goyang kaki, yg die plak sebok komplain x cukup mase nk stadi.. tp kdg2 sian gak kt S ni, dlm tgh sebok2 stadi tu, smpt gak melayan kerenah ngade2 aku ni..hahahaha..mcm mlm td, smpai kul 1 lebey die kene melayan aku, alasan nye sbb aku x dpt tido, so kene la die teman =) tp arini bile die ckp nk stadi, aku paham2 sendri la, x de la nk kaco2 die sgt, yela, ms dulu pun kalo time2 aku exam tu, S pun slaloo gak phm keadaan aku..mase tu lg la, kalo aku kate jgn msg, jgn la msg, kalo x siap la,angin aku pun smpai,hahaha...agaknye, bile dh bertahun2 kenal ni, dh makin phm prangai msg2 kot..hehehe

for my dearest S...

thanks for always being there for me always,
thanks for being soo understanding,
thanks for being so calm eventhough kene deal ngan "my angin",
and thanks for everthin coz u always make my life happier..

hahahhaahhaa...x caye plak i can write those word, yela slame he keep on saying that iam a bit cold bile bab2 perasaan ni..heheheh..yeah, true from my heart..chewahhh=))

"The most exciting interview session "

hahaha...jgn la tertipu, coz sesungguhnya the interview i attended this morning was not exactly an interview..hehhehe..

here's the story>>>>>>>
i had a really terrible morning..bgn2 tdo, my angin katrina pun smpai coz my mom x jd nk ikut hantar g putrajaya.. i know it's not a big deal,but she already promise me!!! Anyway enough of that... Started the journey at 7, and 40 mins later i reached smk putrajaya presint 9 (2)... owh,yup forgot to tell, i was there for " TEMUDUGA PENGAMBILAN GURU SANDARAN SISWAZAH TERLATIH (GSST) UNTUK BERKHIDMAT DI KEMENTERIAN PELAJARAN MALAYSIA " (copy from the letter daaaaa..hehehe)

so dipendekkan cite, i wasnt prepared at all, so confidence jln msk that school holding a file and walk to the dewan. smpai kt dewan i was sooooooooo suprised tgk sumer org yg ade kt ctu tgh stadi somethin, i went and ask, " eh,bc pe tu??" and then my ex-coursemate replied " sha, bc all those crab la yg dorg nk tanye mase interview tu " and i was like....." ooooooooo..kene bc ek" hahahahahhaa..how stupid am i.. and at that moment, i realised i wasnt prepared at all..my hand were extremely cold, there's butterfly in my stomach, and i cant breathe... i tried to be as calm as i can..hahahaha

for those yg x tau,rupe2nye the interview were conducted by experienced teachers and principals, and most of the ilmu kehidupan and ilmu mengajar yg dorg akan tanye was about our education system in Malaysia, the latest dasar pendidikan, and how u berdepan ngan students nowdays,when i say students, students with a discipline and attitude problems...OK! the PIPP things,i dont know anything bout i..and later myfren begin to story bout the dasar PIPP,sekolah wawasan,sekolah kluster and lots of things yg i cant remember...and that moment, i can only hope for a miracle to happen..cross finger for that..hehehe

well,all of us were required to do the UJIAN INSAK(Inventori Sahsiah Keguruan) there's 135 question and u have to answered it in just 30 minutes..insane but true.. aloh,soalan senang,mcm those personality test yg ade dlm cleo tu..hehehhe.. i like that test bcoz i know most of the people will answer it with a penipuan..a big penipuan..hahahhaha..

that was my lucky day, lps habis the ujian, the urusetia started to call all the candidates yg under kpm scholarship.. And guess what NO INTERVIEW FOR US!!!! Hooooooooray!!!!! hehhee, that's the benefit for being a sponsorship students..hehehehe

end of story..the moral is, luck is anywhere,just hope for the miracle to happen..hehhehe..

yup, coz the next miracle things is, i did not spending my 2009 in any places that call SABAH or SARAWAK...


love,
xoxoxo

RaYa 08!

well, it's the 29th day of raya, which mean there's only one day left for syawal..
i always love raye since i was a little girl.. mcm biase la when we talk about raye mestila blk kg kn, but lucky me, my mom and my dad both from n9,so i don't have to pack my things, get the bj raye done a week b4, or stuck in a traffic jam.. but sometimes i want to feel the moment where u pack ur things to blk kg, driving on the raye eve..and that's why on my "FUTURE-HUSBAND-WISHLIST";

• he must not in the same state as me or at least 4 hour journey to his hometown...hahahaha >>InsyaALLAH,kalo ade jodoh,heheheh...
  

so,back to my raya story,each year all my family (my mother's side) will gathered at my house, since they call my house kampung..hehhe... b4 raye, the day full with cooking activities and the must-have food for raye is SOTO..heheheh

I love raya bcoz of the green packets..it's my last year bcoz the rules is anyone yg dh keje kene bg kt yg blum keje.. one more thing that i love bout raya is it's the day where all the family get together,asking forgiveness and it's touching daaa...
so this year i guess everyone ade except for anjang and family..he's in riyadh and ptg raye kak nurul and abg alim came to join us b4 they took off to riyadh..
later that petang, lps kenyang mkn all those yummy food, we went to watch MAMMA MIA and i love the movie sooooooo much!!!!

so far raya is perfectly amazing, with tones of good foods, lovely family, the green packets and the raya songs, raya movies and the tradition to visit others... Chaotic but happening, that is how i describe my raya...hehhehhee

to all;

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa
MaaF ZahIr dAn bAtIn

a few pic that i love..hehheehe

me n my cousins

i don't know why i am being extremely happy at that time...hahahaha

and this pic below i just love it and i don't know why..we're like sooo ceria..heheh

me myself and i

well..i've been reading tones of blog nowdays since i was particularly a jobless person ( i need to get through it for maybe a few months ) filling my day by sitting in front of my ever lovely laptop searching for ???????? i don't know...hahahahaha..

Since i found that reading other bloggers thought is kind of interesting which i've never good in writing but i kind of love it so i wish i had the special ability to write all those thought that been in my mind..hehhe

so, if u read my post just bear in mind i am not a super colorful person that can expressed what i felt i just a simple A+++ essay, just like the old time in school..hehehe

ENJOY READING MY POST...yuhuuuuuuuuu!!!!