saturday 29 november

i woke up today at 8.20 am, tu pun sbb fon umah ku berbunyi, sape la yg call pg2 buta ni, aku pun dgn mlsnye bgn nk g ambik la, suddenly br aku teringat, hari ni kn saturday, my mom ade kt umah, so biarla die yg angkat fon tu, lgpun of course la tuk die kn, so aku batalkan hasrat tuk bgn, n smbg blk tido,hahahhaa..teruk btl kan anak dara sorg ni,hehhe..aku pun guling2 la, dgn hajatnye nk tido blk, dlm 15 minit aku dok dlm selimut, x jugak dpt tido, aku pun bgn la.. rupenye yg call td my uncle, bg information terbaru pasal my uncle yg laen..

so here the story, actually my pak usu was admitted to hospital last night, katenye ade batu kt hempedu, so nk buat laser la, tp aku x comfirm plak bile.. Well, he just got back from london a few days ago, n ape yg aku dgr, mase kt london pun die admitted kt hospital, so my busu had to drive all the way to a few school there for my cousin pre test admission for her A level while my uncle still in the hospital ( i guess la, coz not really sure bout the education system in UK) gosh..ape pun, hope he's alright n gettin better..

Then about my another uncle, my anjang, he's coming back from Riyadh this morning, and actually aku dh dgr die sakit lame dh, since raya aritu, but he keep on denied it.. Mase raye aritu my alang and busu had asked him to came back to malaysia instead of fly all his children to riyadh, ye la kn ms tu die dh start skt, so blk raye and buat further check up, tp he insist ckp xde pape, nothin to worry, and this time anjang blk jugak, kate my mom dh semggu x dpt tido mlm, and he got a few issues yg nk di settelkn kt sini, and i hope one of them is mine, hahahahah.. kalo anjang still igt la kn,hehehe..btw,he should be worried bout his health, sbb my family ni ade sejarah skt jantung.. x sanggup rasenye nk tgk sorg lg my uncle msk ijn buat by pass, adoi,dh byk kali sgt g ijn tu tgk uncle2 aku buat by pass..

picture of anjang with umaira' (his first cucu)

I rase raye haji tahun ni meriah la agaknye, since my anjang pun dh blk, my busu, udo my cousin yg kt yemen tu probably x jd g buat haji taun ni, atas sbb2 yg x dpt dielakkan di saat2 terakhir.. after all semua yg berlaku tu ade hikmahnye and myb it's the best for all of us..

by then, praying for my family moga semuanya dipanjangkan umur dan dilindungi dr segala bencana n sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki, insyaAllah.

take off with love,
illham shiraz

start to appreciate my life..

i had a terrible headache today, dh lame dh x sakit kepala mcm ni, x tau la nape arini dtg blk, since ptg td it's getting worse, but i still here, writing bout somethin that i want to share..

Well, last few days, i stumble across this blog, my first impression bile tgk tuan tanah blog tu,mengingatkan aku kt someone, someone used to be close to me.. sekali pandang muke dorg ni ade iras2, so sbbkn tu aku pun explore la blog die, dr satu artikel ke satu artikel aku bc.. Luahan hati die btl2 buat aku tersentuh, coz i can felt that it is true from his heart. I adore him, sbb in a young age die dh ade company, he works hard everyday and his mum come first. Actually byk lg bende yg buat aku keep on bace blog die dr latest post die smpai la ke first post die, byk jugak la sbb blog tu start dr nov 07.. Bile bc blog die mcm2 aku rase, positif, negatif, and honestly he gave me a new perspective of life. Cara die bercerita mmg best,smpaikan kdg2 aku rase aku ade kt tempat die..tp ye la kn, bkn semua yg jd adalah kehendak kite, sumer tu takdir dr Allah. Tp sebenarnya kite masih boleh berdoa, minta dipulihkan hati kite tu untuk jalani hidup br, jgn anggap semua tu ketentuan Allah sahaja.

Reading his blog made me realise that there are so many things in life that we have to appreciate. " Tiap detik perjalanan hidup aku, merupakan pengajaran untuk aku menjadi lebih baik " I love the quote, since bg kesedaran skit kt aku ni yg x penah nk appreciate life aku sendri.. Thanks to him =) and i will keep on reading his blog...hehhee

Twilight

smlm g tgk twilight..ok gak la cite ni, best jugak..mayb sbb i love this kind of movies kot,mcm heroes skit,bende2 yg ade superpowers ni,heheh..and yes, i love vampires, for me vampires must be seorg yg hensem and this movies doesn't dissapoint me, since the vampire is damn gorgeous..hehehe..tp cite ni dh dimodenkkan, x mcm cite2 vampire yg laen.. and yg plg cute skali, there are vegetarian vampires,how cute is it,hehehe..they don't drink human blood, they just depend on animal blood,ade gak vampire yg baik kn..

here's the synopsis, copy from gsc :

TWILIGHT is an action-packed, modern day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn?t expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she?s ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands ? and he hasn?t aged since 1918. Like all vampires, he?s immortal. But he doesn?t have fangs, and he doesn?t drink human blood; Edward and his family are unique among vampires in their lifestyle choice. To Edward, Bella is that thing he has waited 90 years for ? a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre), the Cullens? mortal vampire enemies, come to town, looking for her?

Kekasih Gelap

aku x paham btl dgn ape yg dh jd skang ni, is he telling me the truth or is it me who being so dumb all this while yg x nmpak bende yg btl dpn mate or x dpt bezakan bende yg tersirat di sebalik sumer ni??? atau aku yg dh kene tipu??? ish, konfius btl..sape yg jd kekasih gelap sebenarnye?? aku ke?? or perempuan tu?? or him being kekasih gelap to that girl?? ape sumer niii????? aku dh jd x dpt nk menilai, n aku x paham mcm mane aku bley terime je sumer explanation.. aku ni dh kene ubat gune2 ke?? ish, selisih malaikat la, jgn la smpai tahap cmtu kn..

kalo nk dinilai, aku mcm x caye ade jugak perempuan yg mcm tu.. aku tau la, aku pun penah ade dlm situation mcm tu, everybody pun penah kn, we like this boy/girl, falling in love, but somehow die x de feeling pun kt kite..mestila kite heartbroken kn, tp smpai bile kite bley still suke die, plg lame sethn kite still contact kalo x reti malu la kn, tp at last mesti kite teruskan hidup kn, let go of him/her n find some other man/girl.. tp mcm mane this girl still like/love this guy, even after 4 years and still chasing after him????????? god,minah ni x reti nk cr lelaki laen ke?? come on la, byk lg laki dlm dunia ni, yg nk bf org tu jugak knape??? x paham btl aku la.. n yg plg buat aku konfius, mcm mane die ngan muke x malu bley buat dedication kt this guy kt radio, n saying that " mama sayang sgt kt papa" WTF girl is she??? eh, x tau ke tu bf org??

ok, mmg la aku emo skit, biasela part2 cmni kn.. then i listened to his explanation.. bley diterima n diguna pakai oleh otak aku yg masih waras ni, n i do trust him, so what should i doubt him bout somethin yg may b die x penah buat, and after all this while i know how hard he'd been trying to get my heart back, and i know how girl chasing after him..ntahla, x tau mane yg btl..tp aku tpercayakn die lebey dr segalanya..

so, for this girl, Nieja@ Niza from taiping perak...
plz and plz...tolong la jgn kaco lg saudara saiful b zuhari tu lagi.. tolongla, simpan je perasaan tu, jgn la nk pakai lg perkataan papa n mama tu, buat aku meluat je, n plzzz leave him alone..

Birthday Girl

YES!! i am back, no more sadness, bad mood and i guess its just my pms that swings around me last week..hehehe.

well, today is my lil sis birthday, she's 18.. Wow!! it's been wonderful to have her in my life, i've never regret for having her as my sister, she's my darling baby, my dearie angel and i love her very much.. eventhough sometimes she never understands me,hehhee.. Yup, i do dream to have her as my best friend where i can share everything with her, watching movies together, hangout, mkn2, just like every sister's do, but i do accept her for herself now and then..

To my lil SITI HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING u're will always gonna be my Baby Girl..

siti with her favourite dolphin (at back)..hehehe

ape dh jadi????

hehhe..yup, what happened to me??? lame btl x menulis pape kt blog ni, bkn xde mase, just mood tu xde... YES, i'm not in a good mood, arini pun same, some feeling yg x dpt nk di"'describe"kn.
Maybe PMS mood dh smpai kot, ntahla, bersabar je la....
But, i guess i do need somethin that will keep me in focus, but ape bende tu? mcm mane nk tau bende ape yg nk dibuat? skang ni, nk membc pun mls, nk menulis pun mls, sumer x kene, so want should i do now??? Sumer yg nk dibuat, end up xde mood.... TENSIONNNNNNNNNN!!!!!! Bile la nk berakhir sumernye ni.. i need my life back, my normal life, i need somethin to keep me in focus, that keep me busy, that will not lead me to thinking bout somethin that is not supposed to be, and later i will be in my deepest mood, where i will cry, and feeling sad, sumer x kene, and end up yelling to everybody!!!!... ohhhh...i hate that feeling, but how can i avoid it?????

please RESCUE me!!!!!!!!!

to S, maybe its bcoz of u, bcoz i know, there is somethin wrong since u back home..
to others, maybe its just my feeling rite.. i dont know...i guesss.. i hope anything will be back normal by this weekend, and i will try..

MY BEST FREN

Last 2 days, i started to read this new book i bought last week.. It's by CECELIA AHERN - Where Rainbows End-

SYNOPSIS :
Since childhood, Rosie and Alex have stuck by each other through thick and thin. But they're suddenly separated when Alex and his family move from Dublin to America. Rosie is lost without him. Then, just as she is about to join Alex in Boston, she gets life - changing news - news that will keep her at home in Ireland.
Their magical connections remains but can their friendship survive the years and miles - as well as new relationships ? And always at the back of Rosie's mind is whether they were meant to be more than just a good friends all along. Misunderstandings, circumstances and sheer bad luck have kept them apart - until now. But will they gamble everything - including their friendship - on true love ? And what twists and surprises does fate have in store for them this time....???

Ok..i choose this book bcoz of it's main subject..FRIENDSHIP and LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP . Yup, i need another point of view, or in a simple definition, somethin that can ease my worrieness towards my own feeling at this moment. When i started to read this book, SHOCKED!!!...hahhaa..mayb i never read any book from this author, and i don't no (I"M SOOOO ALEX, writing NO instead of KNOW..hahahah..bad influence daaaa) whether this CECELIA AHERN writing her books in a " LETTER" , "SMS" , "YM" , "EMAIL" thing..what i wanna say is, it's refreshing and i thing it's interesting... but at first i also thought that is not gonna work, i'm not gonna finish reading this book, it's not what i'm expected, but later i realised i still read this book, at by the end of this week end i'm gonna finish it up..hehehhe..

well, i'll give my own synopsis of this book later and what i think bout the story after all.. does it real broke my tears??? i don't know..still hoping, bcoz for me, the definition of a good book is when it make me laugh and cry..hehhee

LIFE

lame x menulis pape kt sini, bkn bz pun, just xde rase mcm nk bercerita pape..hehehe..
Anyway nothin much to say, the entire weekend sgt boring and my weekdays pun cmtu.. adoiiii, bile la agaknye nk berubah my lifestyle ni..

here's my daily routine....

bgn kul 9, then mandi, prepared my breakfast yg slaloonye just toast bread je,hehehe.. pastu mengadap tv kjp, tgk ugly betty kul 10, smbg tgk rachael ray kul 11, kul 12 tgk wanita hari ini, x pun ngadap la laptop ni, surf la bende merepek2, bc blog2 orang..pastu kul 2 take my lunch,which is simple jugak, no NASI coz im on my low carb diet, then smbg tgk tv, kul 4.30 i will watch the CINTA BATU BELAH @ BATU NISAN bak kate S la sbb cite tu sumer dok mati je last2,hehehe.. then smbg lg tgk tv, 6.30 tgk that sutera maya..but i don't think the story is as nice as Ezora or Manjalara..cite ni busan gile, n kdg2 x msk akal, dh la lembap, bile ntah nk abis.. for me,yg best spjg slot kul 6.30 tu is Manjalara n Ezora je.. then kul 7 diner, 7.30 tgk wulan kt tv1, this is the first indon story yg xde org jahat, purely cite cinta, tp satu la yg x bgsnye, si wulan ni ngandung anak luar nikah..mcm2 daaaaa... so at night, tgk tv lg, or surf internet la..hehehhee.. kesimpulannye, ape je aku buat spjg ari slain tgk tv kn..hahhahaha...

kalo nk kua pun mls, mls nk drive, mls nk cr kwn yg nk kua, n yg plg penting skali boring la kua kt sban ni..xde tempat yg best, sban oh sban. xde midvalley, klcc, ou, ikea, cinelesure.. yg ade cume jusco n parkson.. dh naek muak dh g tmpt tu.. bile la sban ni nk maju, nk g shopping or window shopping pun ssh.. that's why i don't to live here, but what to do, dh mmg org sban kn, kene la admit sumer tu, terima seadenya..hehhehe..

ok, so arini super boring skit..hajat di hati nk g jusco td, nk cr brg2 nk buat browniesla konon, dpt recipe dr blog2 yg slaloo dilawati, tp x tau la nape mls sgt nk ambik kunci keta tu, last2 x jd pun pegi, esok la kot, n kbtlan esok satu ari letrik xde, so bgsla tu, mmg sesuai..hehehe..

ha, arini boring skit sbb S bz, so xde la berSMS sgt..yela, org nk exam, kite yg bercuti ni mmg la, dok senang lenang goyang kaki, yg die plak sebok komplain x cukup mase nk stadi.. tp kdg2 sian gak kt S ni, dlm tgh sebok2 stadi tu, smpt gak melayan kerenah ngade2 aku ni..hahahaha..mcm mlm td, smpai kul 1 lebey die kene melayan aku, alasan nye sbb aku x dpt tido, so kene la die teman =) tp arini bile die ckp nk stadi, aku paham2 sendri la, x de la nk kaco2 die sgt, yela, ms dulu pun kalo time2 aku exam tu, S pun slaloo gak phm keadaan aku..mase tu lg la, kalo aku kate jgn msg, jgn la msg, kalo x siap la,angin aku pun smpai,hahaha...agaknye, bile dh bertahun2 kenal ni, dh makin phm prangai msg2 kot..hehehe

for my dearest S...

thanks for always being there for me always,
thanks for being soo understanding,
thanks for being so calm eventhough kene deal ngan "my angin",
and thanks for everthin coz u always make my life happier..

hahahhaahhaa...x caye plak i can write those word, yela slame he keep on saying that iam a bit cold bile bab2 perasaan ni..heheheh..yeah, true from my heart..chewahhh=))